The wonderful world of Grace’s thoughts

remember the time i was showing off that i was so free?

screw that.

*must be some sort of pay back for me rubbing it in to others =(*

gah!

super stress-ing these past few days.

so much so i’m developing so many pimples on my face, very soon its going to look/feel lyk the surface of the moon. what with the craters and bumps and all.

sigh.

go away pimples!

its lyk a deadly cycle.

i stress, thus pimples develop, then i stress MORE because of said developing pimples, thus even MORE pimples develop.

boohoo.

ok,ok vain moment right there.

but seriously.

mega stress.

uber stress.

titanic stress!

and partially worried.

altho i know i shudn’t worry and put everything in God’s hands (learnt that in bible study yesterday, some verse in matthew, i think) but i can’t help it!

spent the last week preparing for my law supervision, constitutional law which made me particularly grumpy and annoyed at everything.

goodness.

i LOVE law,man *feeds self chocolates*

(this is what i lyk to call postive reinforcements, i’m going to make myself believe i love law and mayb i realy will!)

=)

it was insane.

my supervision was a bit nerve-wrecking.

lyk he was asking me would uk be better off with a written or unwritten constitution and for the life of me all i could say was unwritten, because it covers a wider range of things.

gosh, could i have been any less vaque?

but at least i recovered upon some prompting and come up with smth more inttelectual.

that it wouldn’t give the judges so much power to interpret the law, as they weren’t evn elected by the public, hence defeating the purpose of a democratic nation.

to which he then said "giving it to politicians isn’t any better"

ok, enough abt my stupidity, and complete lack of ability to argue.

law is jst so..

well.

dry.

and so many things to read.

law books are insanely thick.

i swear, my consti book is enough to knock someone out cold.

and i need to go read the papers so i know what is going on in the uk,

right now i’m suffering this disease ppl in cambridge lyk to call the cbs.

the cambridge bubble syndrom, where you are pretty much stuck in this bubble and everything you do or know revolves arnd cambridge academic stuff.

there could be lyk a plague in msia for all i know, and i wouldn’t evn know abt it!

24 hrs a day is so not enough.

grr.

and now i am writing an essay where i have no idea what i am talking abt!

yay me!

1000 words.

291 down, 709 to go.

my supervisor is going to think i am an idiot.

oh well.

as someone put it oh-so-eloquently, if you know everything, that defeats the purpose of supervisions doesn’t it?

=)

that shall be my motto in supervision-ing.

oh, and forgive me for the lack of pictures and the utter dullness in my blog, friendster is being stupid and nt letting me upload pics.

i might, if i’m rajin enough, transfer to blogspot over the winter break.

IF.

oh, and going to london nxt weekend!

yay!

hopefully.

i need a break.

and to get back into the ‘real world’

ee fei tagged me.

and she said that if i didn’t do this, she would ruin my life, and nth will ever be the same again.

hahaha.

ok,la.

ee fei’s nt so mean.

me thinks.

i’m jst doing it cos i’m nice and feel lyk procrastinating.

5 things found in my wallet :
- british pounds/msian ringgit

- resits!

- debit cards! woohoo!

- cinema 2 for 1

- coffee bean/cafe nero coffee card thingy

5 Things in my head:
- how am i going to write my essay?

- how long more is this law chapter going to be?

- how the heck am i going to prepare for exams?

- what to buy ppl for christmas

- why is my room is a constant mess?

(very ‘deep’ thoughts as you can see.i’m a thinker! haha. rooiiteee)

5 words (for me, phrases) I frequently use:
- seriously?

- lah!

- supervisions!

- ey, i cannot study…..

- facebook is so addictive!

5 Recent smses received:
- (from my digi line) welcome to the uk! you can sent sms home for rm2! … (super rip-off mannnn)

ahhh! can’t find my other phone! room is in super mess.heee.

let’s skip this, shall we?

5 recent things I just did:
- read 2 paragraphs abt the british constituition, and then gave up

- attempted to start doing my law supervision, to no avail =(

- face-booked

- talked to yanhong on our free uni phone!

- attempted to go to the college gym, but dunnoe y nt open. cacating.

5 things in my wardrobe:
- shirts, jean, pants, clothes in general

- coats and other winter/keep warm stuff. brr.

- bedsheets and other bed stuff

- bags, from handbags to my two HUGE suitcases.

- food. not lyk food that can rot,la! biscuits and stuff. my cupboard here is jst massive! hence, i dump everything inside.

5 things I just ate:
i cooked my own dinner! be amazed =)

so i noe exactly what was in it. haha.

- onions

- peppers

- beans

- minced turkey

- salmon (sooo sooo yummy. love love it. yum yum. and very very healthy too! must MUST double everything. lol)

5 people I’m tagging:
i’m nice unlyk fei, so am nt going to tag anyone.

haha.

no wait.

i tag amanda tan, lilian tang, audrey teo.

=)

and anyone else who blogs.

gahhh.

been eating so much the last couple of days, its so baadddd!!

=(

someone told me that you shud eat more now in order to ’stock up’ for winter.

lol.

i’m not going into hibernation,la dunguness.

=)

ah, wells.

shall head to the gym tmr seeing hw i have NO classes!

yay!

anyways, yes.

food.

formals.

i shall explain.

formals are basically lyk 3 course meals where you sit down and dress up prettily and eat!

good food, usually..lyk the fancy stuff.

for instance for my matric. formal (yes i kept the menu..i was so nice!) we had :

starter : Warm trout, lime & coriander medallions with baby leaf & cherry tomato salad.

Main course : Char grilled supreme of chicken with roaster shallot & mushroom sauce

annd the BEST part..

desert! Italian tiramisu with blackcurrent coulis.

sounds deadly yummy doesn’t it?

yeah, the brits have this amazing talent of making everything sound super good.

but most formal meals are pretty good.

(they better be, for the 7pounds we are paying!)

ok, i’m blabbering.

so, yeah.

yesterday we went to this ubs dinner at newham, the other all-girls college.

ubs is essentially a investment banking company, and all other things that come along with.

was a pretty fun night.

it kinda made me more interest in IB, seeing that all i knew before was that you work crazy long hours, and get paid insanely well!

=)

now, i know all the little-er sections.

and what interests me most is the investment banking department or human resources or asset management.

not trading.

goodness.

so damn stressful that one.

what more for indecisive ppl lyk me.

how do i know this?

well, last nite before the dinner we played a trading game, where we had to ‘buy’ and ’sell’ equities.

lyk you state your buying/sellling price and you trade with ppl in your group.

then throughout the game there will be news for you to determine if the stock will drop or increase in price.

so its pretty stressful cos everyone knows the same thing and are going for the same goal!

i was super stressed last night.

and it wasn’t evn REAL money.

but i did make profit!

first time was 14 points and second time 75.

nt bad riteee?

hee.

jing ting lyk rugi teruk twice, i thinks.

lol.

but, yeah.

i was so indecisive the whole game, lyk whether to sell or nt, so i dun think i can do trading, where its lyk do now or die.

thus, ibd, as they call it, long hrs but you invest in more long term things, so a deal would usually take a longer time, thus leaving you time to think and decide slowly.

or slow-er.

all in all it was interesting.

and talking to ppl actually involved in ib was cool too.

AND dinner, the formal part, was great.

soo yummy.

and sinful o_O

i think my table was lyk super diverse.

i was sitting with one doing chem. engineering, one doing law, two doing architecture, one doing arch and ant and there was me doing land economy.

preettty random bunch.

and the girl i sat nxt two was hermoine.

harry potter! hermoine!

haha.

she was really nice, and so super talented.

she showed me some pictures that she drew.

and …

OMG.

speechless.

that’s serious talent, wei.

but she told me she enjoyed drawing but couldn’t see herself being an architect…thus she wanted to do ib!

coolness.

and, hermoine does rowing..and is taking part in the GB trials!

and also, she eat lyk a LOT and looks lyk a model.

o_0

she is officially my new idol.

lol.

and she’s lyk the nice-est (by far) ang moh i’ve ever, ever talked to.

okkaayyy, enough abt that.

so, jst now for lunch,i thought i wanted to go ‘healthy’ and ‘detox’ after last nights dinner.

but, friends wanted to go nando’s. so i went along.

more good food eating.

=(

and tonite, i’m going for newhall’s weekly formal thing.

ahh!

more food!

its a charity thing, so i thought i’d go, seeing how i’m still paying the same amt, and at least the money is going to some place good, and nt jst newhall.

haha.

as much as i love my college =)

okay, tmr i shall eat SALADS.

loads and loads of it.

its nt only healthy, it lyk cheap!

1.50 for a bowl.

where, being the kiasu malaysian i am, i stuff it to the brim, till i can put no more.

=)

okayyyss, better go do some reading before i go pretty-fy myself for tonite’s formal.

very the mafan man.

need to put make-up and where nice nice dresses and all.

i dun think i can do this every wk.

i shall from now onwards limit my formal going to once in 2 wks.

and definately, nvr BACK TO BACK ever agn.

and btw, ppl!

if you have skype, let me know your user name and stuff!

i’ve been having a blast catching up with ppl via skype.

so far the longest i’ve skyped to was eileen.

a record breaking one hour and 47 minutes.

lol.

and then, the most changed voice goes to miss tan lee ming, with her super strong american accent!

how can,la woman.

2 months and you so ang mohnized already??

must speak lyk msian,la.

ok or not?

don’t lyk that,la.

why you so lyk that wan,ar?

must be proud to speak good england,mar.

haha.

ok, that was taking it too far.

its really nice talking to ppl, so much faster and easier way of keeping in touch.

and also i’ve gt a really cheap international hp plan.

lyk 5p to msia?

but russia costs lyk15p.

super ex,man.

btrix hii, you better be grateful.

i spent a ‘fortune’ calling youuu!!!

haha.

ok,ok.

i’m going to go do wrk!

yes!

and get myself of facebook and put my face in a book.

lol.

i joined that group (in facebook)

i’m trying to slooooowwwwlllly ‘detox’ myself from facebook.

pray for me.

and my weird addictions.

take care ppl.

=)

ok, i am not in cambridge to be on a holiday.

contrary to what most ppl think, seeing as how i ’seem’ to be rather free.

or at least i was.

not anymore!

*bawls*

i jst finish my first ever uni assignment, an econs worksheet.

yay me.

HOWEVER..

i still have a debate entitled ‘there is no natural environment in the uk’ to prepare for, one law worksheet to go through, one project abt structure/history/etc of cambridge, well, a certain area. my group is doing castle hill, the place where new hall is, and where cambridge practically started!

yes, i know loads abt cambridge history and abt the buildings/colleges and such. so if you ever want to come here, trust me i’d make a great tour guide =)

perasannya.

lol.

and also i can take you ‘biking’, smth traditionally cambridge.

seriously, there are so many bikes here its crazy.

every morning to get to lectures, i have to go thru traffic jam in form of bicycles.

o_O

and today when we did the traffic count for our project (looking lyk idiots standing by the road counting cars/bikes/ppl) i counted 3 times as many bicycles to cars.

madness.

oh and also gt to read up a billion law cases and some brit constitution thingy.

AND read thru accounts/econs/and the thick stack of photocopied pages abt cambridge architecture/history.

and also the book abt the environment stuff.

sometimes i wonder why i choose to torture myself lyk this.

oh, and my course is ’supposed’ to be one of the ‘free-est’ in cambs.

*faints*

finnneee, i’m nt THAT busy, seeing as how i still have time to come and blog..but.. its just, well, seems lyk a crap lot of things to get done.

in a strange and deluded way, i’m actually enjoying myself tho.

did i say strange?

mayb its the air here, that turns everyone in work loving freaks.

aha.

anyways, let’s talk abt happier things now shall we.

my last weekend was the last time fun would still be in my vocabulary.

*i lyk being dramatic, so deal with it! =)*

saturday i went shopping with jing ting, and got a lovely lovely h&m long coat.

50% off!

*grins and can’t stop grinning*

and also a h&m bag for 3pounds!

from 15quid!

*grins so hard that it hurts*

and a book for 2quid, which i dun think i’d have time to read until i go back in dec.

oh btw kl ppl!

i’ll be going to kl in dec!

yay!

say yay,liauuu.

i know you want to see me, riiiiteee?

=)

today is perasan day.

haha.

goodness, this is lyk so aimi.

ah, aimi.

i can’t believe we spent THREE hours on the phone, talking abt complete crap!

i vaguely remember smth abt raya, hot portugese men who make you go all weird, being single, and walking to lectures.

and that’s abt it.

lol.

oh and the search for ben bradley.

he’s nt here,la woman.

dun make me look lyk a craze psycho looking for a guy name ben bradley, whom i have nvr even seen before!

crazyness.

oh, and in jo’s honour, i shall be mc whiney for a bit.

my whole body is in pain.

*whiny, super whiny jo voice*

so tiring to cycle up the hill everydaaayyy.

i dun wanna to walk to lecturess.’

sooo farrrr!!

i want a helicopteeerrr.

i wanna go shopping.

i dunnn have enough shhoooesss.

and cllootttheeesss.

and jacketssss.

why so coolld,wan here.

it’s only autumn,la.

and i hate it when it rains.

so grey and gloomy,man.

but today was pretty, and sunny!

but still cold.

brrr.

i just realised that i’ll be back in abt a months time.

super fast,huh.

suprisingly also, i am nt homesick what-so-ever.

very strange.

and my whole keeping in touch plan has backfired.

well, i TRIED.

wrote lyk super long emails that day.

then gt malas to reply the ppl who replied back.

and also some who didn’t evn bother to reply.

pfft.

see, if YOU gt any more emails from me.

huh, EILEEN lau?

after all these years maaann.

you can’t evn email me.

or call me.

or get sykpe so we can talk online for free.

*sniff sniff*

i’m mengada-ing.

ignore, ignore.

ahh.

i signed up for the gym here.

kinda got ‘addicted’ after the whol holidays going to gym almost everyday.

queer.

35pounds a yr.

nt bad i suppose.

its evn more canggih than swak club gym.

doinks.

annnddd, for our ‘induction’ into the gym

we had to learn how to use this super swanky machine, that apparently is only for guys who want beefy/super buff arms.

and its in our all girls college gym why?

don’t ask.

anyways, its lyk you kneel on this platform, and the platform moves down with you+some weights.

then you gt to pull yourself, and the weight up.

goodness.

all of us were lyk struggling to get up.

and you cannot get off halfway cos apparently you can injure yourself pretty bad.

this machine is so blardy scary/dangerous that you are only allowed to do 10times or you risk breaking your neck/spine.

i’m NEVER going to use that machine.

beefy arms, a definate no-no.

i did it once, and the nxt morning my shoulders hurt.

=(

ok, fine, mayb i am just weak.

bah.

oh wait.

i super sidetrack,la.

supposed to be talking abt my weekend.

ah.

sat shopping.

then sunday went to chessington theme park (thus invoking questions on whether i came to cambs to study or for a holiday.lol) with the cumas (msian society).

supposed to be a fresher’s trip, but super few fresher’s mainly seniors.

but all in all it was pretty fun.

and i discover/decided, that i can’t do the whole free-fall, dropping thing, but can do fast turning rides.

gosh. i sat on the particular one where it was lyk a pendulum,and they swing you from side to side.

so you go super far up, and practically free fall to the ground.

over and over and over agn.

i thought i was going to faint.

so scary,man.

nvr doing that agn.

then there were two very scary looking rides that involve 360/180 turns respectivly.

obviously didn’t sit on those either.

crazy.

i enjoyed this one where your legs are lyk dangling to the ground, and the whole ride is jst lyk super super fast.

but no steep drops and all.

those are awful.

lyk your stomach is falling down, your brain feels lyk its going to die and your heart feels lyk its abt to pop out.

see, told you i lyk being dramatic.

also, there was this one ride where i gt super wet, so had to walk arnd half a day soaking wet.

can you say pnuemonia?

thankfully still not sick, and also haven’t caught the ‘fresher’s flu’!

yay, for my immune system!

so,yeah.

basically my whole weekend was doing stuff, fun stuff!

this week however, i’ve been doin wrk.

but still getting plenty of sleep.

you what’s bad abt me, once its abt 11-ish/12, my brain completely shuts down.

lyk i don’t think straight and i feel lyk i could jst fall asleep standing up.

that’s nt good.

siggh.

on that sad note, i shall retreat and continue my research for my project.

gosh, its been forever since i last did a project.

feels so strange.

ah, and we need to DRAW the structure of the roads.

hopefully not me.

i can’t draw/imagine roads for nuts.

i’ll blog some other time, and yack more abt myself agn.

don’t you worry.

cheers!

xxx

(see, adapting to the brit style. no more msian talk,LA!)

xD

this is my collection of freebies i got from the banking and finance career thingy i went to just now with yanhong.

it was crazzzzy.

being true to my kiasu heritage (being msian, foochow and all.) i HAD to get everything in sight that was free!

so we went up to almost all the booths, and pretended to be interested in their company, altho we are only fresher’s and work is probly the last thing on our minds.

but, that paid off!

my final count was a pretty delliote notebook, 2 umbrellas (one from nomura and the other some random finance company), i tin of cocoa (random much?), 3 bars of chocolate, 1 mug from barclays, a billion pens, a deck of cards (yes, this finance companies give completely unrelated stuff!), 3 sticky notes thingy, 1 labling thing, 2 water bottles, 3 packs of mints, one highlighter from gic (i was still going up to them evn after they rejected me. pfft), and a gazzilion books abt finance and all the companies.

collecting all that was super fun.

lugging it back to college, now that’s a different story.

omg.

halfway up the hill back to new hall, i was starting to regret taking so many things.

i mean, i don’t need 2 umbrellas do i?

blame it on the chinese genes.

oh and i also gt a ipod speaker.

really stupid of me considering i don’t have an ipod.

doinks.

i think there’s still more random stuff i took, but i jst don’t remember.

ahh, and i bought two books today.

so the ex,la.

shud have bought them in msia.

anyone kind enough to courier over books for me??

hee.

one book 30quid.

and that’s with 20% student discount.

darab, darab it. that’s rm210!

for a sstuuupidly boring law book.

which is lyk thicker than a dictionary.

going to read it in abit.

wish me luck.

oh.

and i FINALLY gt my bike.

also so the mahal.

75 pounds for a blardy second hand bike.

rip-off mannn.

and that was the cheapest i could find, some off the super wonky looking ones were selling for 100++ quid.

probly cos demand of bikes super high, supply so low.

wee.

putting econs to good use.

lol.

and no, i’m nt sum econs freak who remembers that from what mohan taught us during as time.

i’m actually STUDYING demand supply all over again.

except now we have things call indifferent curves and mrs (marginal rate of substitution)

i kid you not.

MRS.

i nearly burst out laughing during the lecture.

oh, and my econs lecture, who btw is female, reminds me of nadal.

cos she is spanish, and talks the same way nadal does.

so cute.

i’m nt in love with her, don’t worry.

completely straight.

(don’t cry beng lynn! i’m sure there are other females out there. lol)

ah, jst thought of it.

something rather random =)

wanna see what i got in my cusu fresher’s pack?

wait, i shall take a pic of it.

uhuh.

i don’t think i need to describe the picture do i?

sex here is lyk going shopping. (nt liteeraaallly,laaa.)

first day we had a ’safety’ and ‘welfare’ talk.

they taught us how to use condoms.

o_0

and the fact that ppl were so serious abt it, made it kinda disturbing.

its probly ‘ang moh’ culture to nt care abt stuff lyk this.

to most asians, sex before marraige is lyk taboo.

to NOT be a virgin is a big deal.

but not here apparently.

i pretty sure most of you here and in the states will probly gotten condoms and other ’stuff’ as well.

AND, in my college, we have an ‘emergency’ pigeon hole for ‘emergency’ condoms.

lol.

farnee stuff.

told you that was random.

okies, i shall go read my econs now..

demand, supply, utility, mrs, budget lines here i come.

*sigh*

i am worried!

this could be lyk sporadic or smth, cos once in awhile i jst get this worry phases.

lyk the past few days i have been worrying abt why i have nt got any wrk to do.

then i worried that mayb i do have work to do, but i jst don’t know.

alternatively i worry that due to my apparent lakc of work now, i’m just going to be lazy the whole yr round if i dun start studying now.

sometimes, i worry that i’m nt going to be able to cope with uni work.

other times, i worry that i’m nt making enough of an effort in ‘reading’ up things and spending too much, WAYYY too much time on the internet.

then i worry because i’m always sleepy.really don’t know why but i jst am.

and my biggest worry now, is abt my bank account. which is nt ready yt.

with no money i am so dead.

sigh.

double sigh.

ok, i’m jst making my life seem so depressing when it actually isn’t!

i’ve been having a lot of fun these few days, meeting new ppl, enjoying the new environment and all.

i think i’ve been so busy the past few days, i haven’t really thought abt missing home.

*sniff*

but occasionally i do get this homesickness pangs.

lyk it comes and goes.

for instance, we had the msian society fresher’s squash today. and seeing soo many fellow msians, made me think abt msian food. so weird i know. which then made me think abt places selling msian food. which then lead to me thinking abt home.

well, i can’t say i miss home and i regret coming to uk, cos i really don’t. but still, home is where the heart is, and clearly my heart is still in kch.

ah wells. moving on the happier stuff.

i’ve found a really good cf/cg!

its called the cambridge chinese (i know we sound so bias.lol) christian fellowship.

pretty cool, cos almost all of us are singaporeans/malaysians.

which is funnn.

cos when u come to uk, all and any asian, esp s.e asian ppl become your best friends.

lol.

i jst think it is a tad easier to mix with fellow country ppl.

and i joined a few societies.

including a choir. cos i want to perform at least once.

hee.

and also this scientific thingy, which pays you 10quid an hour to do some pshcology-ish test on you. or 20quid to do a mri scan on your brain!

i thought that was really cool.

and a great way to get extra cash.

i’m gettin very malas to blog these days.

no urge to.

evn tho i do have a lot to say.

anyways, i shall go sleep now seeing as how it is midnight, and i have a lecture tmr at nine.

which means waking up at 7am to fight to use the shower (no ensuite room. so sad =[ ), eating breakfast and walking down to lecture site, which takes 25minutes or so.

far-ness.

*yawns*

eileen lau ruey leeeeee!!!

my dear-est ex roomate/housemate, who is currently a sunderland-ie.

lol.

happy 19th birthday!

hah!

you ARE as old as i am nw.

=)

it is nw 4am.

why am i awake u ask?

the stupid fire alarm went off.

so then i decided to wish you happy birthday!

i hope u enjoy yourself, nt stressing too much with all the wrk and many hours you have!

28 vs 10!

woohoo!

but better nt be too happy.

i heard i have college based exams before xmas.

smth lyk ‘class test’

nt ‘that’ important.

ok, this is practically lyk an email.

but i promise i will email you when i am more free.

have jst be rushing here and there for the last few days.

nevertheless, eileen.. happy birthday agn.

i am going to go back to sleep.

*yawns*

yups, have been super super busy over the last wk since i’ve gt to uk.

running arnd and all.

its only fresher’s wk!

anyways, will update more when i’m free-er.

gt to go sleep nw, gt an induction to my department tmr morning super early.

so tired from all the activities.

and jst had the matriculation thingy, where i has a sip of wine and nw i have a little headache.

agh.

i was definately nt made to drink.